here we are now, a sip of wine a sip of water

Someday maybe, maybe someday we'll be smarter?

Is it true, Jimmy? That one day we can be smarter?

Well, who knows, but I know that I won't be able to trust people very easily anymore. Not that I trusted people in the first place, but I continue to let people in my life and they just fucking screw me over. Why are people so fucked up?

Like... people who say they're your friend but then steal shit from your family. What the hell kind of shit is that? Well, it's not qualities I look for in a friend. I was very upset to find this out yesterday.

I lose a friend. Gain a paranoia.

It sucks losing friends like this, left and right. It just lowers the numbers of people I want to hang out with here. And that wasn't a very large number to begin with.

Where are the people who are true and honest and won't let you down? Where are the friends that aren't just in it to stab you in the back? Where have all the cowboys gone? (That's just a joke, duh.)

I hate being so naive. It's not a very positive characteristic if people are just going to keep taking advantage of my kindness.

Addiction, in general, is something that will tear a friendship apart. Any kind of relationship, I'm guessing. Either way, I don't want to put myself in the situation where I'm around people who have a problem with either: drinking, taking prescription medications or any other kind of hardcore drugs. Smoking pot is still a-ok in my book.

Well, on the upside of things... my birthday is in a week and one day. I'm hoping that the ripe old age of 22 will be better than 21. Ah, and I say this every year. Hoping the one coming will be better than the one past. Only time will tell.

"You'd think after 22 years I'd be used to the spin, but it only feels worse when I stay in one place, so I keep walking away." - Conor Oberst, Bright Eyes. I'm just gonna put the song on here, cause this is how I feel right now.

I did download the new Emmylou Harris album, if I haven't mentioned before, and it's pretty amazing. I do love me some Emmylou. Maybe I'll name my first child after her. Just kidding, I already have my children's names chosen, if I get the choice.... lots of things depend there.... haha, if I even have children, for example.

So, imeem doesn't have that song... apparently, so I put a different song at the beginning of the blog. I do love that song as well.

Very lame, I believe. Not having that song at all.

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rachel